My Shining Star

My nights always looked darker 

People see the stars at night 

But I can't 

I feel lost 

I see no light 

Nothing sparkles in my life

So empty 

Surrounded by people 

But it still gets so lonely 

I wanted to be found 

I dreamt about it each night

I needed to see a bright light 

Someone to hold

Someone to share all my thoughts 

But I was so lost 

At some point I lost all hope 

I thought it was too late

But then I found you

Or was it you who found me 

A smile so bright, it lights up my night

My own personal shining star 

You make me laugh, when I want to cry

And even when you are far away 

I know 

That I am with you, resting in your heart

As you are always in mine

And now when my nights feel so dark 

I look at you and smile

Cuze I know with you

Everything will be alright 

And it made me wonder 

Was it luck or destiny

That we found each other 

But it doesn't really matter 

Only you matter 

Is it love?

My heart beats faster 

My mind stops thinking 

And I wonder 

Is it love 

I want a straight answer 

But my heart is confused 

As my brain keeps fighting it

Stop don't rush 

Hush brain hush 

Am I falling in love?

Every morning I wake up with you on my mind

Before I sleep I think of you 

In the middle of day 

Guess what

I think of you 

Even in the middle of the night 

In my dreams 

It is always you

So what is this

One look into your eyes 

Triggers all these feelings I can't hide

It is like being in a roller coaster ride

An adrenaline rush through my veins  

My heart beats fast whenever I see your face 

Whenever I hear your voice

All I think about is you 

So tell me 

Is it love?

Or just tell me 

Do you feel the same 

When I look at you 

Do you hold your breath

Do you think of me 

The way I think of you

When you look at me 

When you hear my name 

Do you feel the same

Do you feel that rush 

Without You

I heard that you still think of me 

You ask if I am living happily 

“dose she ask about me”

you wonder

and I wonder 

If this was the first time you said it 

Never heard you say "are you happy" 

So now you ask, isn't funny? 

you used to push me around 

I used to ignore that fact 

You used to point out 

things you called my faults 

I used to try and change

All those so called faults 

You tried to create the girl you want

Like I was an AI for you to design 

You did not care 

If I want what you want

You thought I would always follow you 

Like I was your personal shadow 

with you my heart was hallow 

Even all those pills I swallow 

to help me sleep at night

thinking I will feel alright 

But pain and hurt was all I felt

So I am sorry I let you go 

I am sorry you did not 

I am sorry if i hurt you

Although you hurt me first

Always remember that

So forgive me if I don't ask

"How is he doing"

So forgive me when I laugh 

When they tell me you want me back

But my happiness is without you

Without you my soul is back

One more time

Every night before I fall asleep 

I close my eyes I try to remember 

Your face, your smile, your laughter 

I try and try but it keeps getting harder 

Maybe if I see you one more time 

I can re-print your face in my mind

One more time 

Let me hear your voice 

Let me see that smile 

I want to say I am sorry 

But if I see your face

My words will be blurry 

All the words I planned 

They will be gone i know 

I will choke 

With tears running out my eyes

And you will let me fall apart 

You won't try to calm my heart 

I know, It hurts 

But I hurt you first 

And now you moved on 

So maybe it's not a good idea 

To see you one more time

So i close my eyes 

And I try to remember 

Your face and my favorite smile