Without You

I heard that you still think of me 

You ask if I am living happily 

“dose she ask about me”

you wonder

and I wonder 

If this was the first time you said it 

Never heard you say "are you happy" 

So now you ask, isn't funny? 

you used to push me around 

I used to ignore that fact 

You used to point out 

things you called my faults 

I used to try and change

All those so called faults 

You tried to create the girl you want

Like I was an AI for you to design 

You did not care 

If I want what you want

You thought I would always follow you 

Like I was your personal shadow 

with you my heart was hallow 

Even all those pills I swallow 

to help me sleep at night

thinking I will feel alright 

But pain and hurt was all I felt

So I am sorry I let you go 

I am sorry you did not 

I am sorry if i hurt you

Although you hurt me first

Always remember that

So forgive me if I don't ask

"How is he doing"

So forgive me when I laugh 

When they tell me you want me back

But my happiness is without you

Without you my soul is back

One more time

Every night before I fall asleep 

I close my eyes I try to remember 

Your face, your smile, your laughter 

I try and try but it keeps getting harder 

Maybe if I see you one more time 

I can re-print your face in my mind

One more time 

Let me hear your voice 

Let me see that smile 

I want to say I am sorry 

But if I see your face

My words will be blurry 

All the words I planned 

They will be gone i know 

I will choke 

With tears running out my eyes

And you will let me fall apart 

You won't try to calm my heart 

I know, It hurts 

But I hurt you first 

And now you moved on 

So maybe it's not a good idea 

To see you one more time

So i close my eyes 

And I try to remember 

Your face and my favorite smile