Just Fine

I am fine

You can clearly feel my heartache 

So I am forced to wear that smile i fake  

I am fine

I can hide the pain inside 

But I can't leave it all behind

I am fine 

Although I am suffocating  

When I see you I am breaking 

I am fine  

You were mine to hold 

I thought together we will grow old  

I am fine 

Now I don't sleep at night
 I don't blame you it was my fault

I am fine 

That's what i get for breaking your heart 

Glad you managed to get a new start 

I am fine 

I failed to move on 
stuck on the starting line 

Knowing that once upon a time you were mine 

I am fine 

If i get you out of my mind 

I won't have those tears to hide

I am fine

There is nothing you can do

I can't stop missing you 

I am fine 

It is fine cuze I am used to 

Learning to live without you 

I love you

I love you

Those three words that people say

When they feel happy

When they feel loved

When that one person is all they want

I love you

Those three words that I say

To my family

When we fight 

When we disagree 

When I am happy

When I am sad 

What I feel they feel it too

Dear family, I love you 

I love you

Those three words that I say

To that friend

When I need a hug 

When I need to cry

There is nothing I can hide

From that friend by my side

Dear Friend, I love you 

I love you

Those three words that I say

Not to you though, no way

When you were there I didn’t feel well   

When you talk it hurt like hell

When I am sad you could not tell

When I wasn’t what you wanted  

You tried to change me but failed

I am who I am, I won’t change

At the end you did not stay

My friends, my family they stayed

I love you

Those three words that people say

I love you

Those three words you did not say

Stars

I stare at the stars late at night

I remember you

Not that you shine

No

You and the stars are both far

Nothing I can do will change that

Just like them you are out of reach

My brain gave my heart the same speech  

“Let it go be free

I know we both don’t agree

Heart, it is you what matter

So why holding on things that are scattered”

But it is a hard thing to do

Everything I see remind me of you

Stars are my favorite though   

Unlike the full moon they are always there

To remind me that once upon time

I loved you

Maybe I still do

Memories

I can feel those memories

I want to let them go 

It is all in my head 

Ashes and dirt that what I felt 

Maybe all I need is to wipe it clean 

All “you” memories that I don’t need

Although bad is what they seem

Some happy things are hiding between 

but no it can’t be forever 

It is raining and I think it is time

Rain on me! 

I feel each drop on my skin 

On my head

On these memories we shared

All the ashes were gone 

No more you no more us 

All the memories are now lost 

Ask the rain if you must 

Where are our memories? 

Where is the happy us?

No it is not the rain 

No one else to blame

It was me it was you 

Now it is just me without you

Trying to live another day